Don't Eat Fried Food

“I want drink and food”
“Me too. Let’s grab some”, he agreed.

He took two bottles of drinks. Ribena for him and ice lemon tea for me.

“How about food?”, he asked.
I hold a packet of tempeyek with a broad smile. Tempeyek is made of flour, nuts and anchovies, traditional crispy food and it is deep fried. 

“Hurm, let us try to eat something that is not fried. It is better to have food with no or less oil,” he suggested and then he took away my tempeyek which I showed him, he put it back on the shelves. He went to another shelves and I followed him in silent.

“See, you can choose one of these. Biscuits? Cakes? It is better”

I cannot hide my frustration. I don’t want to have biscuits or plain cakes. With no smile, I replied, “it is okay, I don’t need food. Drink is enough”

I did not mean to reject his suggestion, I agree with him. Yes, “I am fat, I know”, I talked to myself :-(

He looked into my eyes. He took deep breath and went back to the previous shelves. He grabbed the tempeyek again.
“Okay, okay.. we take this…”, he said softly and he paid. Then we walked to the car.

“Just now I wanted to suggest the best for you. For your own benefit, okay?”
He told me when we were inside the car, he gently put his hand on my head.
“I love you, I care about you.”

I smiled. He is so sensitive with my feeling. And he is also trying his best to advice me in the gentlest way he can. I really admire the way he cares about me and my feelings.

I did not tell him that actually the tempeyek was not for me. I took the tempeyek for my juniors who were in the recreational forest for a camp that night. He and I were going to the campsite that night and I planned to bring some food for them. I didn’t want to tell him that I did not eat that tempeyek, because his words and actions were really make me feel loved.

I will take care of myself more, because I know he cares.        

The Fact Is...

Translated lyrics for 'Terlalu Cinta' ;

Don't come closer or
Don't come back to me
I am suffering
For not having you

I am trying to live
With someone else
But my heart is always
For you

Why all these
Happened to me

God, forgive me
For can never stop
Dreaming about him

But I can do nothing
Because the fact is
I really love him

Finger in Pain

I was in the kitchen, ready with an empty plate in my hand and was heading to the rice cooker, which its lid already has no handle. Without thinking, I tried to open the lid only with my finger and "Ooocchhhh!!!"

Quickly, I put my finger into my mouth. Then I checked, it was red. Because the lid was hot. I was sad. Not because the little pain I felt on the finger but I miss him.

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One day, I was with him on our way back from JPJ. It was his first time renewing his driving license. No more P on his license now, he was so happy. He said, it is meaningful for him, "I collect this first license with you!".

While driving back, he tried to charge his iPad, connecting the cable into the car cigarette lighter in my car. It was not charging. Even that is my car, it was long time ago since the last time I used the compartment to do charging, so I am not sure what was the problem. So he was the one who struggled with the cable, while driving.




He tried to push the button inside the compartment with its cap. When he took out the cap, it was hot. So he said, "the lighter is functioned". He passed me the cap, while he was trying to connect again the iPad charging cable. "Hold this. Careful, it is hot"


At the same time, we were arguing about an issue. He was angry and we were in silent for a while he was still checking the iPad and its cable. I was doing something else, maybe checking my mobile phone or simply looking on the road. Forgetting that I was holding the hot cap, I suddenly misplaced my fingers so I touched the hot surface. I was screaming, my finger was in pain.

"You haaa....!!!!"
He slowed down the car.
"You are so careless! I told you, it is hot!!!"
He hold my hand, "Let me see..."
"It is okay, I am okay...", I replied.
"Let me see...!", he was checking my finger, and rub it with his finger. I was looking at him, he still look angry but I felt love.




*****
It was the same finger. The different is, he was not here.