His Little Acknowledgement + My Broad Smile

"Your flower (brooch on my shoulder) match your scarf", he suddenly praised.
"Owh," before I manage to reply and started to broaden my smile, he added, "And that is the end of the conversation"

Then he started looking to his phone. And I kept smiling.

That was happened when we met for the first time, this Syawal, when he came to my hometown to visit me and my family. I picked him up in the bus station, where we had that conversation.

A week after that, at our friend's wedding, I asked him if my scarf is okay and match my dress.
"Weird"
I took a deep breath, starting to show unhappy face.
"But nice!", he added.
Then I suddenly smiled, and thanked him.
"Next time, let me finish talking first," he added, because he knew that I was about to protest his 'weird' answer.

He praised me, then he cut it quickly? Hehehe.. Shy? Ego? Didn't want to make me over excited? Hahaha..  I don't care, it was still sweet and I am happy with his little acknowledgement and admiration.
His little acknowledgement draws a broad smile on my face.

Titanium - His Song

I call this song as HIS song. Because I only listen to this kind of music after being introduced by him. At first, I didn't feel as being 'introduced' but, being 'forced to listen'. Hahaha.. but, from times to times, I start liking this musics too. And this song, Titanium, make feel strong, energetic, excited, happy and.. eerrr.. loud..

Can you imagine, we both singing (shouting) in my small car this song? All of the problem that make me stress were disappeared at that time. Yeah! Here it is, Titanium...


You shout it out
But I can't hear a word you say
I'm talking loud not saying much
I'm criticized
But all your bullets ricochet
Shoot me down, but I get up

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Cut me down
But it's you who'll have further to fall
Ghost town and haunted love
Raise your voice, sticks and stones may break my bones
I'm talking loud not saying much

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose
Fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim
Fire away, fire away

[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium
I am titanium

[Sia:]
Stone-hard, machine gun
Firing at the ones who run
Stone-hard as bulletproof glass

[Chorus:]
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium
I am titanium

Yeah, I won't fall.. I won't fall!!!!!

Jealousy

He talked to the phone so long.
He was driving and I sat beside him doing nothing. Eh, not nothing, I was listening to him.
Waaaahh.. sounds so friendly, happy, so manja..

I kept looking at him. In my heart, "Hey, I don't want to spend my time seeing you talking to the phone."

Then we stopped at the a petrol station. I did the process, because he walked away, to continue talking to the phone.

"Who was that.."
"I told you, right... she is.."
I don't remember her name.
"What she wants?"
"Owh, she asked me for being the DJ...." blah blah blah...
Actually I know, because I heard he talked.
"Okay...". In my heart, "you laugh a lot, you were teasing each other.. huh!"
Then he looked at me...
"Hey! Are you jealous?"
"No.."
Then we already arrived at a Mc Donalds. I went out from the car. And he continued, "fuyooo.. somebody is jealous.. slammed the door some more... HAHAHAHAHA!!!!"

EEeeeee.. his face at that time, so evil!!!
Jealous, why should I?

Ramadhan and Us

"Do you know when is the fasting month, Ramadhan?"
"Next month, right? Eh, no, end of this month?"
"Yes, you are right!"

"Eh, my first time coming to your house was during Ramadhan, right?"
"Really?"
"Yeah, first time seeing your family.."
"Oh ya!"
"I only break my fast with bread, so when we arrived at your house, I ate your mom's sardine curry kaw kaw.. yummy!"
"Sure sardine curry?"
"Yes, I am very sure.. I remember you call your mom first, asking what she cooked.. then you asked me, sardine can eat haa?"
"Owh.. ya ya.. hahaha.."

We came to his family house without telling his mom first. Surprise! Hahaha..
I still remember, when he introduced his sister, his mother.. They look so... pure.. with pretty smiles.. and welcoming me so warm. Sure I was shy and worry too, of course his mum asked me a lot of questions but I still feel very comfortable. No wonder he is a nice man, his family is also very nice and kind people.

After eating, he, his sister and I went to a restaurant, buying roti nan and tandoori chicken for me. Theywere so worry if I will be hungry the whole night. "You are fasting during the day.. eat.. eat.." I kept the food for my sahur.

"I remember your daddy light up the candle for me to have my sahur...!! aawwww.. so sweet..."
That morning, it was a blackout.
"Morning Uncle!"
"Morning... "
That was my first conversation with his dad.

"Do you remember how you woke up that morning?"
"eerr.. how?"
"Hei! I woke you up la...! "
"Owh, hahaha.. really ha?"
"Ya la.. pity you if not sahur.. huh, I woke you up but you don't remember.."
"Hehehe.. okay, okay.. so you will have the pahala too!"
"What is pahala?"
"Eerr.. the opposite of sin.. "
"Owh.. okay.."
"You woke me up for fasting, then you also gt the pahala..."
Now I have the word. It is REWARD.

"So, do you miss the murtabak Bazar Ramadhan? hahaha..."
"Hey, don't start"
"Hahahaha.. eh, do my parents know about your story and murtabak?"
"Hey, don't tell me that you are going to call you parents and tell them!"
"Or, I put on my Facebook status now?"
"Noooooo!!!"

Murtabak Bazar Ramadhan

The first day of Ramadhan last year, we went out. He also did not eat the whole day, saying pity me. Actually, I also felt pity him.

We went to Bazar Ramadhan, bought a lot of food. Hahaha. yes, we were greedy. Then we kept them in the car. After breaking my fast with a drink and pop corn (we were in the cinema, watching the Minion! hahaha) I performed the Maghrib prayer. Then when we were again in the car, he asked, "so where we are going?"
"Eerr.. eat what we already bought la..."
"Eh, I want to find the murtabak from Bazar Ramadhan.."
"Now?"
"Yeah...?"

Then I burst to laugh. He thought the Bazar Ramadhan was still be opened after the break fasting time. He look so innocent at that time... Hehehe.. I know I made him quite angry by laughing,but I cannot help myself. What make him angry more, was not my laugh, but I was spontaneously called friends, telling the story.

"Hey, I didn't care about when the Bazar Ramadhan is opened before this la..."

Okay, okay... I am sorry, Mr Cute

The LOVE Chicken Nugget

One night, when I was in KL visiting him, he bought me a set of chicken nuggets. Heart-shaped chicken nuggets. At first, it was not so special, I only looked at them as food. I was hungry.

But one time, he picked a chicken nugget which already broke into two pieces, in the middle. He used two sticks to pick up both pieces, one in his left hand and the other in his right hand. I was taking photos using the mobile phone he gave me when he called me, showing the chicken nugget. He posed with the chicken nugget, I took his photo. So cute and funny too.

Then, he ate one of it, and fed me the other one.Quickly, he turned, continued playing with his mixer. I didn't know what he felt, but at that moment, I felt.. uhuumm.. sweet...? For me, it was not sharing the chicken nugget, but half of the 'heart' is with him, and another half is with me.

*Why woman like to overthink about something? always have hidden message.. lalalala*

Osaka : Beautiful song, beautiful video, beautiful moments with him :)

This is the song I love to sing because of its beautiful melodies. The video also so beautiful. And when I understand the lyrics, I love this song more. Here is the English translation.

****

Along with the lovely breeze
She sprayed the honey
And stung me like a scorpion

Like the husk of the coconut
She shredded my heart
And showed me what was hidden inside

Unaware of my surroundings
I lay blissfully
Without seeing the directions
I spread my wings and start flying

Higher, little higher
She let me touch the clouds

Higher, little higher
She made my heart fly like a kite

The chilled rose on the dusty road
waved her hands, came long talking

Thames water fish came to
swim in the Vaigar river

....

In between the countryside,
came this.. (ops, I didn't have the translation here.. )

Who stir...
...

Even after opening the eye, it did not vanish
I don't understand if it's a dream of if it's real

Like a bee, sleeping on the lap of the flower
It will be wonderful to transform to that
Till the vicinity of my eyes
And I am gliding like a
Till the vicinity of my eyes,
The green carpet spreads out


****

Of course, this song reminds me to him. And his whole family. I sang this song at his family house and I love his mother's smile when I sing this song. I sang. We sang karaoke at their house and he found for me this song with English character so I can sing because I cannot read Tamil.

Again, this song is beautiful, like the beautiful moments I have when I am with him and his family.

Higher, little higher,
He made my heart fly like a kite

"Why You Fall For Him?"

Someone knows that I really love him. I really miss him. Then this friend asked me, "Why you fall for him...? Why?". I know, this friend tried to tell me, "You shouldn't fall for him".  Hurm. Why I fall for him? This is the very first reason.


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After two days I stayed only in my room, one evening I went out for a home tuition. My student needs me, no matter how my condition is, right? No matter how miserable I feel after being ignored for 2 weeks. Hurm..

I felt a little bit motivated since she, a 11-year-old Indian girl was very enthusiastic while studying with me. Then I drove back home, felt satisfied with the 2 hours session.

On my way home, I was stuck in traffic jam. The slow traffic made me have time to look around from my car, until I saw my Mc Donalds. We called it MY Mc D because it is close to my place. The moment I saw my Mc D, it reminded me to, "This is the place both of us first met, only two of us". Can I call it as a date?

Yes, after a program when he was the participant and I was the MC, we met again when he came to join my friends and I at a karaoke place. I can say, that was our first time meeting after the program. After 8 months, maybe? Then we met again the next day for a movie, also with my friends. Man of Steel, I remember. When in the middle of the movie, he fall asleep. Cute.

So, the first time we met, without other friends, was in front MY Mc D, few hours after the movie. When he parked his bike there and joined me in my car, having long talk. 4 am until 8.30am, I remember. That morning he told me, he had crush on my. That morning. How fast our story was, right?

We also met again at the same Mc D several time. One night, that was the place when I told him about my last relationship. Last engagement. I cannot remember how he manage to dig the story. When I told my close friends and family that I was okay, and pretended that I was strong to face the frustration at that time, he was the ONLY person who knew that I was not okay. I stopped telling the story and looked outside the car, hiding my feeling when he was about to leave my car. But that moment, he realized that I was sad. He understand me and he gave advice that touched my heart. He said, "It is okay to feel sad, and cry. It is okay to show our own feelings. Then we will feel better." He made me think about myself, when before that, I prioritize others. That night, I know he is special.

When the whole world see me telling a lie about my feelings, when the whole world see a happy me, he brings the true of myself out. He lets me be myself. And that makes me feel so good, to have him by my side.

He met me for a short time, and he already manage to understand me. How can I avoid myself thinking about him, when this story was recalled when I pass that Mc D?

*******

I answered that friend, "I fall for him because when the whole world think I am happy, only he knows that I am not".

That is why, when it is hard for people to see my crying,  I can cry in front of him even for a very small matter.